Ok.. So how do you find a date? How do you find someone you want to spend time with?

This is the question that roams through my head these days. I met people and I think that I would want to get to know them better. Some I think, “I WANT to get to know them”. For those that know me would be surprised that I clam up about now. I think, “kiss him before you say good night”. Then I give him a peck instead of a kiss.

I get in the car and wonder what the hell happened. Then on the drive home I kill myself thinking back and forth. Well what would happen if you went in for the kiss and he didn’t want it. WOW then I think… POOF… friend gone. I really think friends are more important than not right now, but a guy needs to make out too… WOW I over think shit.

Tonight I went for a walk all around Bremerton and then when I came back with my Starbucks Ice Tea (no sugar, no added water). I did not want to watch TV at all, so Facebook’ed, Bear411′ed, and YouTube’ed friends and people I am fond of (oh and my trusty Zune – right now I have a Bonnie Raitt mix on).

I did not know that my Yahoo Messenger was on and some guy from “Tacoma” (turned out to be Puyallup) started to ask my how I was. UGH… I have not really done the chatting thing so far. I have signed up for all of the chatting crap, but not really “participated” (insert the OMG Rick Wise blog moment here – love you Rick) yet in the online thing until last night – that is a different story.

So this guy started with “hi”.. The universal gay mating call. I did an out loud, Homer, DUH!… and I thought what the hell. I answered back. That started the conversation that went for hours (here is the fast version) – Have we met – nope – i think we have met on ‘xxxx’ website – nope never been there – how about ‘xxxx’ nope that that either – how about xxx (about this time I think he got it) – nope – have you ever seen my pic – yes a long time ago – well I am new to online so if it was a long time ago then… nope you have never seen me, maybe we met in Tacoma because I recently left there – nope – ok so we have never met ….. ok then many text back while I have facebook game “farkle” on one side and the chat on the other I realize I am not chatting with a crazy. He seems normal. Really!! When did normal people do this. OH WAIT, I am doing this too. I am normal too, aren’t I??? OK two hours later, Jack has to go to bed and so do I … But apparently I have to blog about it. I am finding this WAY to interesting. Why do I feel like a newly christened virgin? OK so there may be too many snickers out there. Shut up bitches!! Luvs